Hiiii.

I'm back kids.
Didjaa miss me?

I broke my laptop
and myspace is blocked on this puter
so I've resorted to xanga again.

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Quoteeeeeeeeeeeees
after what seems like FOREVER.

We're both such magnificant liars.
     SO CRUSH ME BABY ;; I'M ALL EARS



STRUNG OUT
ON BLOW
SHE DOESNT KNOW
WHY SHE'S NOT FEELIN' GOOD
DROPPED OUT OF
SCHOOL AND
NOW SHES MOVING OUT
TO HOLLYWOOD.



I heard about your regrets.
I heard that you were feeling sorry.
I heard from someone that you wish you could set things right between us.
Well I guess I should have heard of that from you.
I guess I should have heard of that from you.





this is the worst mistake i've made.
and i make thousands everyday.
if you give me this one more shot,
i'll make it up in every way.
i'll call you twice a day,
and drive you to the airport.
just so i can watch you leave.
even if you're leaving me.

stay up all night & sleep all day
we were smart kids with too much to say
we were so so sure that they were missing out
"yeah, they're the ones that are missing out."



fashion magazines line the walls
now the walls line the bullet holes
y e a h ,  y o u  s u r e  l e t  h e r  h a v e  i t

Am I just another scene from a movie
that you've seen 100 times?
Cause baby you weren't the first
or the last or the worst.
and I've got to fill the blanks in the past with a verse
and we could sit around and cry but frankly
You're not worth it, anymore.



one summer day I fell in love with you.
gave you everything, heart&innocence.
 you convinced me you were in love
 spent everyday with me
reassuring my heart, i was the only one for you.
 you gave a whole meaning to the saying,
I'll give you a summer you'll never forget.

Life's too short to wake up in the morning with regrets,
so love the people who treat you right,
forget about the ones who don't and
believe that everything happens for a reason.





We're not the girls your mother warned you about
because her imagination was never this wild


i can name all fifty states,
fourty-eight get in the way,
from me being next to you.
if it were up to me,
we'd have everything we need,
you'd have me & i'd have you.


i saw the futrue once, i was drunk in a phone booth.
my eyes were wet and red but i  couldn't tell what was
said, and through the streams of traffic, voices carried
saying, " i'm sorry , " on a day so grey, it's black inside.
watching churches on tv; in a coma you don't dream.
you just hope that someone sits with you.




just ask yourself one simple question..
is he taking care of your heart ?


I just want to pin you up against the
Wall and mess up that beautiful
Hair of yours

cup your mouth to compress the sound,
skinny dipping with the kids from a nearby town.
and everything that i said was true,
as the flashes blinded us in the photobooth



and wouldn't it be ironic, if at this
very moment, you were thinking
of me just as much as i'm thinking
of you..





To lay there in my bed, pretending to be asleep,
When really you're the only thing on my mind.
Then when I wake up in the morning I think
" I wonder what he's doing right now"
You could call it obsessed.
I call it teenage love.



The secret to being happy is realizing that no matter how bad life is,
it can always get worse.


you just have to run away ..
to see who cares enough to chase after you

that happened yesterday.

I had a great life before

you. Not good but it was

okay. Well it was empty

actually, but at least i was

blissfully unaware of how

miserable i was. whereas

no, i am acutely aware of

how completely and totally

unhappy i am. thank you for that.
- Faliure to Launch



Rock Bottom
is atleast

STABLE GROUND

Unless you have lived my life,
Don't judge me.
Because you don't know, never have
And never will know every little thought and detail about me.


Hold my hand, let's chase the sun.
We both know something's begun
Nothing feels that real without you.
I wanna learn so much about you.


So that's it.
I'm shutting my doors
And putting my walls back up
I'm closing my curtains
and removing the welcome mat
I'm blocking everyone out again,
Because it's so much easier than feeling something.







Here's to the kids who would rather spend their nights with a bottle of whiskey than go to some vomit-stained highschool party.  Here's to the kids whose 11:11 wish was wasted on one person who will never be there for them.  Here's to the kids whos idea of a good night is sitting on the hood of a car, watching the stars.  Here's to the kids who never were too good at life but still were wicked cool.  Here's to the kids who care more about the music than the haircuts.  Here's to the kids who have ever had a broken heart from someone who didn't even know they existed.  Here's to the kids who are straight up smartasses and just don't care.  Here's to the kids who speak their mind.  Here's to the kids who second-guess themselves on everything they do.  Here's to the kids who will never have 100 percent confidence in anything they do, and to the kids who are okay with that.  Here's to the kids....



And finally.
something that actually happened

and I thought was ridiculously cute.



ME: you make everything about me smile.


BOY: everything about you makes me smile.



:]
I'm kind of hopelessly inlust with him.







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SORRY
SORRY
SORRY.

I have no time to update.. ever anymore.
I might be shutting down
cause I feel bad about it =/
but I'm gonna try and start another one when I have more time on my hands.
if not.
I'll keep this one
&& try my hardest to keep it atleast 2weekly.
If not more.

I love my subscribers =]]

iM FALLiNG FAST AGAiN.
&& i CAN'T SAY iM DREADiNG iT THiS TiME<3

Yeah. Im finally updating.
Sorry.
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she said, "mr. bartender get me something strong
it's been a night like this &it's gone all wrong."
mix a bit of love &pain; with a full shot of jealousy.
she's got everything you didn't have in me.

Haha--
"If that bitch died.
I'd show up to her funeral with a beer"


Say you wanted a solution
You just wanted to be missed.

I wanna tear apart your room
to see if what you say is true
Darling don't you lie, lie to me
I wanna break into your heart
to see why you want us apart
Oh, I'm scared to death to find out what you think of me


But that's the point.
We see a deadly sin on every street corner,
in every home.
& We tolerate it.
We tolerate it because it's common,
it's trivial.


If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash
then crash & burn
you're not alone.

There's a reason for everything
cause anything can turn you around
theres a dead end for everyone
because anyone can let you down.

UPDATE GORGEOUS'

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[favorite for today]

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WHAT YOU DO ON YOUR OWN TIMES JUST FINE
:::
MY IMAGINATIONS MUCH WORSE


I'm leaving the past where it belongs.
way behind me. My future, well, it looks
fantastic, because you won't be a part of it.

Whoa. Sorry that I've been really slacking on updating. I was waiting for more comments, but I guess that didn't happen

most of these icons came from [casilda2358]
Shes got greaaat stuff.
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[1]
Haven't you just wanted,
To break all the mirrors in your house, because you can't stand,
Looking at yourself anymore?
But you know it's useless,
Cause what hurts the most,
Is everyone else's opinion,
And they don't need a mirror to see you

[2]
& I've become content with this life that
I lead, where I drink too much & don't
believe in much of anything
and I lie to myself. & say "it's for the best."
we're moving forward, but holding ourselves back.
and we're waiting on something that will never come.


[3]
"why dont you see it
your everything to me
give me one chance & i swear
we`ll make this last forever."

[4]
"When in doubt ::: DO put out"

[5]
if i c0uLd be YouR 1St [[ REAL ]]
H E A R t b R E A k
i`d d0 it aLL OVER - - a g a i n *

[6]
Without friends no one would choose to live.

[7]
Go ahead, go out with her,
doesn't faze me a bit.. but don't
come crawling back, complaining
when things don't go right for you..
you had your chance with me, &
I'm long over you by now

[8]
I tried to go on like I never knew you
Im awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
`Cause without you all Im going to be
Is |[ Incomplete ]|



[9]
If I had to explain
I wouldn't know where to start,
it's like you fall in love
while I just fall apart...

[1o]
Ransom notes keep
falling out your mouth,
Mid-sweet oak,
Newspaper cut outs,
Speak no feeling
No, You don't care a bit baby
You don't care a bit.

[11]
Turn down the static,
We'll make it clear
Crawl into the backseat,
With the stale taste of beer
Baby, we don't need music,
We'll make it all on our own
'Cause these anthems that we're making
Are like buying love from a pay phone


[12]
girls fake orgasms
& boys fake romance


[13]
i`m gonna grin and bear it.
you won`t even know i`m here.
i won`t utter one word to you.
cause that`s how you want it, dear.

[14]
Say anything
But, say what you mean
When you whisper you want this
Your eyes tell the same
We are gaining speed
&& I can barely breathe

[15]
Goodnight lil' star..maybe tonight
is the night my wish will come true,
sleep tight lil' star..I’ll be dreaming
along without you & if I wake up
tomorrow & he is still just my friend
then I'll see you tomorrow
lil' star to try this wish again

[16]
loneliness is the new trend
wear it like your new perfume
strong and easy to sense

[17]
you break hearts
like you're something special..
you aren't fucking special.

[18]
Use the pearls around her throat
to choke her endlessly until it hurts
bleeding lies out of her chest
all the lies you had ever said
you always said she looked
best in red